I Was Born A Winner!!!

And I was thinking this morning that my life was too difficult... HA!!!! this inspiring clip sure puts things in perspective. :0)

Thanks Linda from Ribbons Roses and More for the morning post

Me... an Enabler....no way!!!! REALLY?

Now if you had of asked me 6 months ago, heck even 3 months ago if I thought I was an "enabler" of would of said NO WAY!!!! After all, I know what an enabler is, I know the lingo....right???? WRONG.
I am so an enabler....LOL
I thought I was being a "good Christian wife"....being there for worse, waiting for the better. Waiting for a miracle, doing what I thought was my part. HA!!!! All I was doing was interfering, manipulating my surroundings (trying to).
I had not realized how much of my day, my life, was occupied with trying to control an alcoholic..... after all, if I could control the situation, then perhaps I could control whether or not he drank...... and if I could control if he drank, then I could control whether or not if he came home, and if he came home would there being fighting.......stupid girl Cindy, stupid girl.... O.K. maybe not stupid......naive maybe.... uneducated.
I am so striving to "LET GO & LET GOD"..... easy in theory.... I have 17 years of enabling to shed.
I know that with God's help I will..... He has supplied all the tools necessary for me to do that, I just need to locate and access them. I may even attend an Al-Anon meeting, who knows.
It's all good.... it is amazing to look back at something that now has a light shining on it. It is so clear.
Oh My Goodness...... It has just dawned on me.... ('ding' goes a light bulb); I have been saying (quite forcefully) to my family and friends that I can deal with anything, just as long as I understand it..... I could do hard labour because I understood the process of delivery (a baby).... well I get it now, I can deal with my next level of healing because I understand what is wrong.... WOW!!!!
I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO LET GO AND LET GOD HEAL CINDY.... and let husband worry about husband (don't worry, I still pray for him, that he will allow God to shine light into his life, that God would send His angels to hold back the darkness and allow His light to shine.)
Whew!!! thanks for letting me share my thoughts with you this day :0)

God is so Faithful

He is so good!!!!!
My two girls and I have very recently had to relocate.
Our home situation was one that I no longer could handle.....after 15years of marriage leaving it is not something done easily.....but God was there every step of the way....
We were only two days at my sisters when He provided us with a lovely apartment, one with chickadees at my back window....how awesome is that (I love chickadees).
I believe that through the use of a dream, He told me that Holy Spirit IS guiding me....whew!!! What a relief that knowledge was.
So I am looking to my future with hopeful eyes...I hope to be trained to do something that I love, something that can sustain myself and my girls.....it would be a blessing if this relationship could be salvaged, I know that God believes in marriage, I believe in marriage, but I am no longer sitting around waiting for the "what if's" to happen....I'm getting out there, getting on with the rest(beginning) of my life... I have to start living, and not fretting.
He is my provider
He is my comforter
He is my rock
He is to be Lord of all my life.

I know that God is here for me now.... and will be there for me later...whatever my situation.

IT's Friday..

It's time for......

Friday Flea Market,

will today's contestants please Click forward...

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FORWARD

A Book and Apron Giveaway....

We all love giveaways :0)

And the Winner Is....

Congratulations!!!!

The winner is..........

Jan

Please contact me with your details....which name you would like to use, and of course the all important....address.

Thanks to all you the ladies that took the time to comment on my very first draw.

Blessings,

Cindy♥

Harvest Lane Cottage: Stuck in it's ways....#links

A wise and caring woman shared this blog....definitely worth reading

Harvest Lane Cottage: Stuck in it's ways....#links

Better Times in 2009

My thoughts and goals for 2009

The Chateau of Remnants is encouraging us to come up with some goals for 2009....

I think that to be a very good idea.

So here are some of mine;

• To allow God to do some more healing in me
• To become less focused on personal garbage
• To be an encourager to those I meet.
• To become a more focused, centered person
• To be a more generous person
• To commit myself to sticking with online business
• To enlarge my circle of people
• To develop more Blogger Buddies
• To be in a better place personaly before 2010.... oh my goodness, is it almost 2010 :0)

Friday Flea Market

Some of what is available today...... and any other day :0)

Scented Hot Pad ................Pink Beaded Necklace Set

Both are Handcrafted by "yours truly"

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Christmas Cactus

Well.... my "Christmas Cactus" bloomed at Christmas.... whada-ya-know!!!!!

This was part of my grandmothers cactus, my mother and sister both have "offspring" from it as well.

Looking at this picture I had to laugh at myself..... for a girl who has a house that is as tiny as mine, you wouldn't think I should be waisting it with such large decorations...... NAH!!!!

Of course I would.

As you can see also, Franklin is everywhere I go.... That's My Boy!!!!

Friday Flea Market

Silly Me.... I forgot that it was Friday....

Pop on over to see what is up for "Friday Flea Market"